I think we can all agree that we're constantly growing, learning from mistakes and failures to develop us into better individuals. I've been failing since day one, but something I've learned to accept in the past few years is humility.
You might view humility differently then I do, but I think of it as being humbled. For instance, the first time I really understood and felt humility was when I started crossfit. Up until then, I had been doing the same sports for years and it had been a while since I'd learned something new.
Before my first day, I had watched the Fittest on Earth movies on Netflix and followed the top athletes on instagram. I thought I know everything about Crossfit already, but shoot... I had no idea.
I thought I was tough stuff and that I would crush this sport. I thought that if I did Crossfit for six months I would be good enough to make it to the games (lol I know it's embarrassing even sharing this). I couldn't have been more wrong! I got my butt HANDED to me three times over.
I honestly felt like a failure. I felt unfit, out of shape and weak. I questioned my athletic ability and grew very discouraged. I was by definition humbled by Crossfit and acknowledging that I had just started was hard for me. As an adult, I'd never been completely new at something in a very long time. When I was little learning to play soccer, I had no idea what was going on. Heck, I didn't even pick out my own clothes back then.
As we grow in age, people are afraid to learn new things. People think "it's too late" or "I'm too old." To me these are excuses. People are afraid to embrace humility. It's okay to suck at something even though you could be an expert or pro athlete at something else. We are all only human, so we're not perfect.
I'll be honest, I didn't fail gracefully. It showed that it bothered me that I couldn't "win" crossfit. But you know what? I'm glad I wasn't graceful. You wanna know why? Because I would've never learned. People laugh when I say that I love to fail because it sounds crazy.
Failure is the key to success and I know that now. That's why I love it. I know that if I learn to suck, I can then learn to be great. Nothing worth having will ever come easy in life and guess what? I don't want it to. Things that come easy aren't as valuable to me. Medals and trophies on the wall mean nothing without the journey.
Recently, I did my second Spartan Race of the 2019 season. My first race I placed 2nd in the Competitive Heat and took away two medals for the first time ever. I just started running competitive, where they count your burpees, and award you for the effort. I was on a high after that race, so when I went into the Spartan Beast at Aspen Snowmass I expected to see gold again.
I ended up running my fastest Beast time by 20min and at 9,500', but you wanna know what? I was unhappy with my performance because I didn't podium. Doesn't that sound awful? Well guys, that's what humility feels like. Don't get me wrong, it downright sucks.
Understanding that you are not the best and you can only do YOUR personal best is humility at it's finest. To some this concept comes easy, almost too easy when people don't push themselves or believe they are capable of so much more. This would be an entirely different topic, but let me just say that you ARE capable of being great.
Every single person on this planet is beautiful and wonderfully created by our Father. He has great purpose for you, but won't do the work for you. Push yourself to become what He intended you to be. I can tell you that you probably won't be the best, but that doesn't matter. What matters is that you showed up and failed.
That's my advice for you. It sounds hilarious because well it is. I want you to show up and get your a$$ handed to you. You will learn to become a better person and work even harder for what you want. I hope you don't succeeded on your first, second, or twentieth try. I'm glad I didn't.
Be gracefully humbled friends. Learn to know where you stand and work from there. One of my favorite quotes by Thomas Edison, "I didn't fail. I just found 2,000 ways now to make a lightbulb; I only needed to find one way to make it work."
Start inventing your lightbulb so you can see through the fear that's preventing you from greatness. Follow me on instagram to see my journey.